Just a little rant.

I’m not sure who is going to read this, but I want to say thank you in advance to anyone who does. It’s definitely one of those nights where you feel like you need to pour your heart out or you’ll explode. So here it goes.

This is what I’ll be writing about tonight;

• Love
• My future
• Mishaps
• Getting back on my feet
  

Love: Someone in my English class said “Love is like a butterfly. If you hold onto it too tight, you will crush it. If you don’t hold onto it tight enough, it’ll get away.” The more my relationship with Brent progresses the easier it is to believe that. I don’t really know what love is to be honest. But when I think about Brent, I get a pretty good idea. I recently was blessed with a learning experience. I won’t go into details, but lately our relationship relates almost exactly with that high school kid quote. I’m sure this doesn’t make sense. If it doesn’t make sense to you then it’s not supposed to. But what I’m saying is, put your self in the other person’s shoes. See things from their point of view. Also, take time to yourself. You need it. If you care enough to want whatever you have to last, you have to welcome alone time.

My Future: On October 28th, I talked about my perfect GPA and how I wanted to continue that throughout the year. Long story short, it didn’t happen. I have just over a month to get my grades up and graduate this year running strong. To put it bluntly, I haven’t been trying my hardest and I regret it. But tonight, I had a wake up call. I am going to get my act together because I deserve a good future… if I earn it. And that is what I want.

Mishaps: Basically the point of this subject is that I’m glad I’m Mormon! I am so grateful that I know of the gift of repentance and have the comfort of the knowledge that God will forgive me. I lost my footing recently but I’m back on my feet. It’ll stay that way too. :]

Getting Back on My Feet: I pretty much had a life changing epiphany tonight. I want to be a better person.

Thanks for reading. Ask questions if you please, I will be happy to answer them.

These girls have some serious talent

I so wish I could do this. It's almost inspiring.

I got my baby:]

My first guitar. I love it so much. :D

The K and A reunion

One of my very best friends and I have recently started to hang out again and I am very happy about it. We are pretty crazy.. It's just lovely :] So yes. I thought I would tell that to the world. (Or whoever happens to read this?)

R.I.P Jessica

R.I.P Jessica Harris
June 9th, 1992-March 8th, 2010

you will be remembered
missed
and loved for the rest of eternity.

Young Love:]

*Pictures were taken March 8th, 2010


This right here folks is a boy that I happen to be very fond of:]
We started dating on January 28th, 2010 and we're still going strong. I've never met an other boy like him. He makes me the happiest girl in the whole wide world. I can be myself around him and he can be himself around me. Ever single day he reminds me of how much I mean to him and he just makes me feel like a princess. We get along with each others families, and we get along with each others friends. This all seems like a fairy tale. It's just so perfect:] I thank God ever day for blessing me with Brent. I couldn't ask for anything more.




Starting March 5th, I am doing a "technology cleanse." I deleted my myspace and facebook and I'm not going to make a new one until March 5th, 2011. I'm sure by then I won't even want a new one anyway. When I told this to people they all thought I was crazy. But really, it is just too much drama for me. It's hard to deal with people getting upset about me talking to so and so because they don't like them or throwing a fit because so and so is before them on my "top friends." I'm just done with it. And not to mention, things like that act as a drug. They are addictive and take up all of peoples time. I think it's best that I spend my time with family, friends, and studying for school rather then seeing who changed their status to "in a relationship."


**Jordan, if you happen to read this, I hope you know how much I love you, miss you, and that you're my best friend.**

Halloween is here! :]

It's been a long time since I've written. I have my excuses though! I've been very busy with school, trying to keep my grades up. I passed the first term with a 3.8 GPA! I have to admit, I'm very satisfied and proud of myself. After doing terrible in school last year, it's my goal to do a thousand times better this year. I want to get at least two 4.0's this year. Next year, I'm going for all 4.0's. I would like to graduate high school with a scholarship to New York University. I'm not quite sure what I want to major in yet, but I've got a couple ideas.

Anyway, Halloween is almost here! Only three more days! I'm so very very much excited. I still don't know what I'm going to be yet, but I was thinking of being a bee:] I also thought about being the corpse bride, and a cool Asian chick. I'm going to have to decide soon though! Today in one of my classes, the kid that I really don't get along with was talking about how "lame" Halloween is. I just think he doesn't know how to have fun.


On Friday, the peer tutor council (Me and 6 other people) are planning a party for the mentally challenged kids. I think it's going to turn out awesome! The kids are also very, very excited. They have come up to me every single day this week with comments like "Ashley, are you ready for the party?!" and "Ashley, the party is on Friday! I'm so excited!" It's the most adorable thing:] I'm glad that they are so anxious for it and I hope it turns out as well as planned.


But anyway, just though I'd catch up! I hope all of you have a great weekend! Don't scare too many kids. :p


P.S. The costume I was thinking about is the picture at the top of the page... Just lower heels:]