Can you hear me now?

You know how people sometimes think they are invisible? I don't mean like a super hero, I mean socially.
Well lately, that is how I feel. I'm not sure if it's because I have a small body, so I don't have much power to my voice, if they are too busy to listen, or if they hear me, and just don't care what I have to say. I may be small, but I know for a fact that what I have to say is important. I'm not looking for a global broadcast of what I have to say, just for me to say something once and not have to repeat it. Maybe if I start screaming right up in peoples faces they'll start listening to me. Yeah? If not, I'll just have to knock them around a bit ;p

Anyway, I've been really irritable lately. I'm not sure if it's the move, the fact that my time of the month is coming up, the heat, or that I just miss a lot of people. Whatever it is though, I'm really sick of it. I just was to be normal again. I know it's up to me, but it's just hard. Hopefully you know what I mean, other wise I just sound like a brat.

Summer is three weeks in but I still feel like I have school tomorrow. It's a nice relief to know that I don't. :D But as if you guys care, here's my schedule.

• June 10th - Jordan is visiting for one night.
• June 11th - Sleep over with Cait
• June 12th - Jump on it with Cait
• June 14th- 18th - Girls camp :]
• June 25th - July 2nd - Wyoming with Jordan!!! :D
• July 12th - Papa's birthday
• July 19th - 21st- Trek
• July 22-25th - Vacation
• July 27th - Brents birthday
• July 28th - Mine and Brents 6th month anniversary

There will of course be in between stuff and stuff that will pop up :] But so far that's what's on my calender. This summer should be a good one:]

New things, new places.

I have recently decided to live with my dad for the summer. I lived here last summer, but all I did was sleep. So this summer should be lots more fun:] It'll be nice to spend all that time with my papa and siblings as well.

Anyway, in case you guys are interested
Here is my Summer To-Do List

• Get a job
• Go boating
• Travel as much as possible
• Spend LOTS of time with Jordan:]
• Try something new at least twice a week
• Save my mulaaa
• Get good enough at the guitar to actually play a full song
• Read lots of books
• Exercise more
• Go swimming at least a bazillion times
• Count every single red bull I drink (So far I'm at 8)
• Finish what I start
• Visit my mama as much as possible
• Go to summer seminary!
• Try to get a little sleep in :p

Laaaammeee.

It's 10:24 and long story short, I'm just barly getting started with babysitting four crazy kids. As frustrating as it is, I can't even tell you how excited it makes me to be a mother for my own children someday. Of course that day won't come till much, much later on, I can't help but get excited.

Anyway, my life is pretty boring right now. All that has been going on is school, school, boyfriend, school, family, school, school, friends, and school. Mostly school. Thank goodness it's almost over :] I'm psyched for summer time.

All questons answered

Keep in mind that these are in no particular order



I Like:


I love my best friend.

I only wear skinny jeans.

I'm addicted to RedBull.

I love to color with sidewalk chalk.

I play my guitar every day.

I love to sleeeeeeeep.

I like white chocolate mochas and caramel macchiatos.

I'm a concert junkie.

Although I have never been to one, I love raves.

I love animals. I don't like eating them.

I'm a pretty peaceful person.

I love my boyfriend Brent.

I like bare feet. Shoes don't really work for me.

I like cartoonified dinosaurs.

Monsters too.

I have a ridiculous sweet tooth. I love candy.

I can loose myself in a book any day.

I suppose you could consider me an artist.

I like trees. Well.. I like all nature.

I like summer time.

I Dislike:

• Liars
• Texting and talking on the phone
• School
• Alarm clocks
• TV
• Animal cruelty
• Milk
• Drugs/Alcohol (Imma straightedge.)
• Water bottles that leak
• Meat
• Bananas
• Sucky chap stick
  
• Judgmental people
• Canada
• Clothes
• Sugar cravings
• Feeling down

Prom 2010

I really like this boy. :]

My Goals

Sometimes it's just good to make a list of your goals, yeah?

• Finish school
• Get a job
• Save my money (Don't spend it all on red bull)
• Try out for the soccer team and make it
• Eat right and exercise
• Visit Jordan
• Buy some more dresses (Kind of clashes with the third goal)
• Smile as much as possible
• Be a good example
• Go to church

Sound good?

Just a little rant.

I’m not sure who is going to read this, but I want to say thank you in advance to anyone who does. It’s definitely one of those nights where you feel like you need to pour your heart out or you’ll explode. So here it goes.

This is what I’ll be writing about tonight;

• Love
• My future
• Mishaps
• Getting back on my feet
  

Love: Someone in my English class said “Love is like a butterfly. If you hold onto it too tight, you will crush it. If you don’t hold onto it tight enough, it’ll get away.” The more my relationship with Brent progresses the easier it is to believe that. I don’t really know what love is to be honest. But when I think about Brent, I get a pretty good idea. I recently was blessed with a learning experience. I won’t go into details, but lately our relationship relates almost exactly with that high school kid quote. I’m sure this doesn’t make sense. If it doesn’t make sense to you then it’s not supposed to. But what I’m saying is, put your self in the other person’s shoes. See things from their point of view. Also, take time to yourself. You need it. If you care enough to want whatever you have to last, you have to welcome alone time.

My Future: On October 28th, I talked about my perfect GPA and how I wanted to continue that throughout the year. Long story short, it didn’t happen. I have just over a month to get my grades up and graduate this year running strong. To put it bluntly, I haven’t been trying my hardest and I regret it. But tonight, I had a wake up call. I am going to get my act together because I deserve a good future… if I earn it. And that is what I want.

Mishaps: Basically the point of this subject is that I’m glad I’m Mormon! I am so grateful that I know of the gift of repentance and have the comfort of the knowledge that God will forgive me. I lost my footing recently but I’m back on my feet. It’ll stay that way too. :]

Getting Back on My Feet: I pretty much had a life changing epiphany tonight. I want to be a better person.

Thanks for reading. Ask questions if you please, I will be happy to answer them.