Just Leave The Pieces When You Go

OH MY GOSH. What an emotional couple of months.


For those of you who knew about my school situation, I am officially caught up. So Jordan, come and see me. Garrett, you can text me :p I promise I will text back. Erika, we can play more. Lindsay.... Well Lindsay forgets about me sometimes I think. So I will just skip that one :p


I am really falling in love with guitar. Lately I feel like it is the only way to describe myself and express my feelings. As lame and cliche as that sounds, it is completely true. When I play, I lose myself. All my problems and stresses disappear for a bit. And it's amazing to me how many beautiful sounds can be created by just 6 strings. I really love piano but I could never really get attached to it. When I started to play guitar, I immediately fell in love. It's almost all I can think about. I feel like I am getting better too which makes me want to practice even more. The most exciting part of all of this, is that I got asked to do a show! I didn't do it, but it did inspire me to get to the point where I am comfortable enough to do a show. I took my first step towards that today and played for my class. To my surprise, I got 100 out 100 on my song. Seeing my score made me feel SO happy.


Speaking of love, I am overwhelmed with it. For some many people and so many things. I'm almost falling apart. I feel like I am getting a grip on life though. Wish me luck on... life? Please and thank you. I love you all!

P.S. Sorry (especially to you Garrett) for not writing for a million years.

Just For Garett

HEY GARETT!

I'm wasting time, just for you.
Because you love me and my blog so much :p
Just kidddinnn

You're great kid (:
Anddddd I love yerrr guts.
You are like number +7875
on my best friend list
The + sign is like a negative
but obviously way better.


Back to homework [:
Don't be a stranger,
and I'll do my best to text you back xP

Rejuvenation :]

I'm done with my past

All I got in front of me is my future
and the slate is spot free.
I feel so much better.

I don't want to look back anymore,
only focus on the present
and the future.

I just want to tell my friends and family that they don't need to worry anymore
I did a 360
and I'm a
completely
different
person.

I Love You Guys.

My mama. I love her more than anything in this world. I can not even comprehend how much she means to me. I would do anything for her and I know she would do anything for me. I honestly have no idea what I would do without her. I thank God for my mama every single day of my life.

Dallin. If anyone could make me a better person, you could. You have taught me so much and you are so good to me. I'm not sure how I got so lucky to have a big brother like you.

Brent James Hill. Thank you making me believe in love. You changed my life forever. Also, thanks for not backing out even though sometimes I act like a crazy person.

Garett. I have so much to thank you for. You are one of the most amazing people I have ever met, everrrr. Thanks for always having my back.

Jordan Lee. The definition of "The Perfect Best Friend." I love her so much and I sure hope she knows that. I'll always be there for ya, sister :p

Kennedy Maria Pett. I'm for real when I say I will always be best friends with this girl. I would be lost without her.

Jadie. There is not a doubt in my mind that without her, I wouldn't be here today. I love her so much.
Even though she is a bully. :]

Erika Elise. I depend on her more than she knows. I also care about her and look up to her more than she knows. I love her to deathhhh.

Lindsay. The best sister in the whole world. She's almost like a mother to me.










Dane. I wouldn't have wanted anyone else to marry my sister. He's amazing. I don't think I've ever met anyone so real in my whole life. Not to mention he's extremely funny. The real kind of funny that makes more then just himself laugh.

Grr

Is there anything that you hate so much that you can't even stand to think about it? And the sight of it makes you want to puke while giving birth to an elephant? Maybe you don't like a certain food, or a certain person. But I guarantee you, those feelings you feel when you think or see that certain thing don't even come close to what I feel when I think about PLEASANT GROVE HIGH SCHOOL. I have never hated anything so much in my life. I would rather rip out my own intestines and wear them as a belt all while eating a stick of butter and chewing on my foot then go to another day of that school. I'm willing to risk my entire future and drop out (I'm not going to) but I would sure be happier. Wish me luck, I still have the rest of this year and next year.

Are you there God? It's me, Ashley.

I have experienced so many crazy things this summer. I've traveled more in the last three months than I have in my entire life, I grew even closer to my sister Jadie, I learned so many life long lessons, I fell in love and fell out of it even faster, I've made some crazy mistakes, and over all I had the best summer of my life. Too bad it's over! School isn't all that bad though. I like my classes and that's what matters. As far as being trapped for 8 hours and the people who attend it's still my worst nightmare. Looking back at my summer to do list, I finished 10 of the 15 I wrote. I think that means I win x]








Anyway, lets have story time.

The last week of summer I went to Oregon. I love it so much there! I wish I could have stayed longer but school was starting. While I was there, Jadie and I went to the ocean. I think out of all the incredible things in this world, the ocean is at the top of the list. It's one of the things that those know-it-all scientists can't learn everything about. It stays a mystery. And it's SO pretty. Everything about it is beautiful from the surface to the very bottom. :] We also went to the tide pools and got to touch all the weird sea creatures that get stuck until high tide comes in. It was so cool :D

















I also made a couple of friends while I was there. Well, I guess I met a couple of friends. I've been talking to them for a while now and I just met them in person:] It was a lot of fun to be able to talk to them face to face:]

I think the most important part of the last three weeks of summer was spending time with Jadie. I thought it was possible to get any closer to the girl but I was soooo wrong. I'm not even sure how to explain it. I just love her tons :] We both agreed it's a bit cruel for our parents to keep us apart but what do you do? I suppose it just makes seeing her once a year that much better :]


Sorry in advance to get all serious, but I need to vent somewhere. Only so many people read this anyway and I trust all the ones that do.

I talked about him a lot, so you all know who Brent is. What you don't know, is that we broke up :[ I'm not going to say why, just know that it's a long story. I didn't believe in love before I met Brent. I only believed in lust. I thought the whole love thing was all just a joke that little girls like to fantasize about. But Brent made me fall in love. He made me feel things that I had never felt before and I'm not so sure I ever will feel again. He made me happy :] Despite all the pain now, I can't get myself to regret it. I wouldn't mind if the pain disappeared.. But I spent 6 months in a constant dream. I was never unhappy when I was with him. I also had someone there, someone who cared. He was always there for me and still is even though we aren't dating. I'm not gonna lie, I'm still in love with him. It's been exactly a month today since we broke up. If we were still dating, it would be our 7 month mark. I keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason and that there is a bright side to all of this. I just have to keep searching. Also, thank you to my family. If it weren't for them, I doubt I would have made it through the first week without him.

Long Time, No Talk?!

OH MY GOSH I'M BACK!

Mwahahaha, I disappeared.

Not really. I've just been busy, busy, busy. My step sister Jadie has been here visiting and I only see her once a year. She is my best friend in the whole wide world. I love her to death:] Even though she just drank all the RedBull. (Which by the way, I've had 83 so far this summer. I think it would be cool if I got to 100.) We've done some pretty crazy stuff while she's been here. I'll go into more detail about it later on and also have some pictures up :D Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm alive. Hope you all are having a fantastic summer!